juls random thoughts

a lot of happening last week. highlight and the most heartbreaking of all is the Glorietta 2 blast. i work in makati, walking distance to glorietta and before i decided a month ago to bring home-packed lunch, i always spend my lunchbreak window shopping in glorietta particularly glorieta 2. i always visit the stores there as the second floor is mostly children's clothes and the ground floor houses my favorite stores which are Kamiseta, Bayo, Kashieca, Mylk and Body Shop. That is always my route, I use the Landmark-Glorieta walkway, turn right and visit the first store-Spin, Baby Guess, Enfant, Think Pink and Gingersnaps. Then go down to check my stores or head to 3rd floor to visit the polo store near the escalator. I now fully understand why I experienced the financial difficulty that I am going through because that financial difficulty is my reason for deciding to bring packed lunch. I realized that I will save a lot by bringing my lunch. It is also a blessing that I was not in Makati that time, that I was in QC, in my client's office the whole day. God definitely has reasons for everything and I thank God for saving me.

I remember being shocked when i received hubby's call telling me of what happened. then after that receiving a call from my sister, ate gem, checking where i am then a text message from one of my officemate doing a headcount and another text message from my sister in law, asking how i was.

I also am grateful that on that particular friday lunch, hubby and his officemates has decided not to eat at Luk Yuen as they usually eat there on fridays. I am thankful that they have decided to eat in Greenbelt instead. I am grateful that there are a lot of people i knew who just left the place when it happened or were just on their way to go there, or have decided to go to a different part of the mall instead. Thank you for this coincidences, thank you God for saving us.

The sad story, I received this email from my good friend laura sent to our egroup, it was a forwarded message, the origin of which was the discoveryweekend yahoogroup, it was an email from carlo cruz, husband of one of the victims of the blast. below is a copy of the email, i cried when i read this email.

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To: discoveryweekend@yahoogroups.com
dwvolunteers@yahoogroups.com
dwf-board@yahoogroups.com

Good day everyone,

I wish I were writing under different circumstances.

I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz
was part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall
bombing in Makati City, Philippines. She was supposed
to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati Medical
Center at 230pm.

I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there.
We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents
place in QC to babysit at around 10am. We then
proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she
had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she
wanted to move ar ound and listen to some music while I
grabbed a bite to eat. We parked at the basement of
Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2
entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she
turned right towards Filbar's while I went left
towards the restaurants. That was the last time I
would see her.

Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at
the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her
appointment. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1
through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn
the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave
from the blast hit me. At that moment my heart dropped
as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the
same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried
getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too
much and it was as if I was staring at a white wall.

I still tried to convince myself that she was able to
make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without
a response only meant that she dropped it in the
confusion. After 6 hours of searching from Makati Med.
to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again
to MMC - with the help of all the people I could get
hold of, that I was able to get confirmation in what
the state of my wife was.

My Dad and Uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My
Uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's
appearance to another group of doctors. I saw in the
eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead
of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then
brought me to a small examination room. It was only
through a digital camera that I was able to confirm
(and deny) that she was indeed gone.

I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner.
I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should
have not chose to park where I did. I should have
braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should
have ...

Today's the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to
breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source
of strength, your best friend doesn't lie beside you
on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber
starts asking for her Mama.

I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the
loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the
details of how her mother died, but more importantly I
would like to raise her as how her mother lived - a
loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and
nurturing. She has always cared for her family and
friends, and sacrfied her career for being a full time
mom and home maker.

As with all couples we had our ups and downs - none of
which I regret not going through. The sweet is never
as sweet without the sour. For almost 4 years of
marriage, we've finally hit our balance in life only
to be taken away in an instant. I have no regrets
about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond
her capacity. I will always love her.

It is my first time to write to egroup as I've lurked
and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want
now is that for each of the couples here is to cherish
each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty
simple to say, very easy to take for granted.

Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to
ask you to please include Leslie in them until her
40th day so that the path to God's kingdom is well lit
and she is no longer in the dark.

Sincerely,

Carlo Cruz

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i am deeply saddened by this email, most especially when he mentioned that they are merely 4 years married. francis and i are also having our 4th anniversary this december. it was not enough, they haven't shared much yet. for some reason, i have decided to check my yahoo account and there i learned that carlo and leslie were our batchmates in discovery weekend. we took the same seminar last march 7-9, 2003 and this new news made it more heartbreaking. i pray for the repose of leslie's soul, i also pray for the family she left, his husband carlo and their two year old daughter amber and her parents who are mourning for their loss.

i hope we learn from what he shared, that we treasure the people we love while they are still with us, when we still have the chance.